Kau.

This year, it’s seem to be very hard, tough and rough year for me.. Tempat kerja yg semakin palat.. Kawan yg tikam aku dari belakang.. And most importantly, I lost 2 important person in my life. My fiancée. And my friend..

After i break up with my fiancée, it is very stressful time for me.. And luckily i have you, my friend. No, my best friend. I know, i hurt you more then i can imagine.. And it’s all my fault. I leave you when you need someone to talk. I hurt you when you are hurting. But at that time, i am so stressful.. really stress.. Aku ditekan dari kiri dan kanan.. Pakcik, makcik, orang pejabat x tahu aku putus tunang.. Aku terus diasak dengan soalan2 bila nk kenduri, mana kad, majlis tema apa.. Setiap hari.. Dan masa tu fikiran aku betol2 celaru, konfius dan marah. Kemudian aku jadi takut. Takut kehilangan. Takut terluka. Dan aku ambil keputusan yang x masuk akal..

Bestie, you remember how we met? Yup.. At futsal match. I don’t know if you still remember but i remember it clearly. Kau sepak tulang keting aku, Lebam seminggu. Agak kuat jugak ko sepak. Kau tolak aku sampai aku terjatuh bergayut kat tepi jaring. Aku add kau kat FB, tapi x berani nk tegur,like like status je, sampai la 4 bln kemudian aku jumpa kau kat Big Bad Wolf barulah aku berani nk tegur. And the rest is history.. And i’m sorry.. Because of my stupidity, we become like this.. Aku telah merosakkan satu persahabatan yg terjalin.

You know, bila kau cerita macamana cerita hidup kau, aku betul2 rasa terpanggil yang aku perlu lindungi kau.. Lindungi kau dari terluka lagi. Sepertimana aku yg selalu terluka. Tapi aku x sangka aku yg melukakan kau.. What you said is all true.. Dont make a decision when we are not calm, when we are angry.. Itu salah aku dan aku memburukkan keadaan. Thank you for your advice.. I will always remember it.. I know i have been so paranoia lately. And i so sorry.

Manusia tidak akan menghargai sesuatu sehinggalah kehilangannya. And that is very true.. Lepas apa yg berlaku, Percayalah, aku betul2 menyesal dgn apa yg aku dah buat, apa yg aku kata.. After this, aku akan lebih menghargai persahabatan kita.. And i promise.. I will always make you happy from now. You know, i love the way you laugh. I love it when you smile. It makes me so happy. That’s why i always try to make you laugh, even kadang2 lawak aku hambar. And i admit, i really miss the way you laugh.

Terima kasih kerana sudi mendengar.. Dan terima kasih sebab angkat call semalam. I really appreciate it.

Legnote : Nanti bila2 kita pergi Zoo k. Bungkus nasi ayam fuziah bwk gi sana